I would call you as-A Blessing.

Since past years of my college or to be precise as I grew up I have heard about these line from our elders that life is a journey where we meet new people at every stage, some come, some go, some just leave us, but I believe some do stay with you within our heart forever ……. Though destiny has its own plans, always!!!  Yet heart is no less in keeping your loved close whatever be the situation.

Well, here I dedicate my piece of writing to that special someone, who will stay in my heart forever ….. Let me be clear whatever the destiny holds ahead …he will always be with me in my heart  holding that place as someone extremely special..

Well I am a girl who believes a lot in destiny and power of god, and I feel sometimes we are just destined to meet some awesome people who happen to change your life and fill your world with happiness, that’s the kind of person you are.
 A girl like me had a very boring and usual life, struggling with lot of things, shattered with stuff around and was searching  for that magical zing which may change my life altogether. I read this horoscope of my zodiac and its heading said in bold letters Love comes calling when least expected… and I just shrugged at it giving a thought this is all rubbish.  Why will anybody love a girl like me?…to that extent I had lost my confidence.

And as they say what you don’t expect in life is bound to happen, out of no where this amazing person enters my life, I still wonder why and how? initially it was just a casual acquaintance, I had this perception for him as if he is  just another guy flirting around but as the time passes, people begin to identify the real you. This acquaintance turned to friendship and friendship to something more and more and I guess it went growing with each day passing by. It’s so strange that some who is just as good as stranger to you becomes so very important and your world starts revolving around him. 

He is the one who has entered my life as a ray of sunlight which gives a knocks like, hello dear it’s a (good) morning ….my lips have got that curve always which we know as smile, eyes so twinkling as if anyone can see the stars in it… my world truly changed, you gave me back my so called losing confidence that yeah, girl…you are pretty and beautiful,  boy  I will always be grateful to you for this.

I am writing it all, just to tell you what you mean to me and unknowingly to what extend you have pampered and spoiled me ;) 

Your love is that precious gift of destiny to me which I would name as blessing; it is so rare to get it these days. I know while you read this, you will hate me for praising you so much...But my dear I just can’t help it. You’ve been just so sweet and you heart so true that you yourself have no idea about it.

 You’re the strength within me and my weakness as well …. The time you understand me and stand by me when nobody does, is the feeling that I am so not capable to express in any mode. Whenever I just think about you or miss you or feel how blessed I am, the salty water comes pouring down to my face and I really don’t know why.

I just don’t know how to tell you, that you are the only man in the world who makes me happy and sad at the same time, how to tell you that how good you make me feel about myself, you gave the strength to believe in power of love and trust yet again, how to tell you; how lost I get when you are not around, how jealous I get when I am not with you and so also I swear I would hurt that any girl who is with you and not me (ok this point is little exaggerated)(wink).

Dear, How to tell you that I am so in love with you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I might forget to breathe at times but I do not forget your name back in my head for sure, at times I hate myself for looking however bad and yet when you say no, you’re the prettiest one for me I just lose it all!…I get mad, I get irritated but at the end of the day, I am so sure that you will handle it all and you will always be right there standing beside me...

 it feels such a pleasure to know how lucky i am, when however busy or tired you are; you make sure to give me all your love and attention....sorry i dint know  how to tell you all this…until today. Yet whatsoever happens in future is acceptable because I know destiny loves to play games with me, cause it has never been kind to me when it comes to love, (sigh!)

Though whatever it is, I just mean to say through all my lines..... that I feel truely blessed to receive all your love, care and protection and this will remain in my heart till the eternity. THANK YOU so much for everything you have been to me!

A PERFECT.....PARTNER??!!

OK, so this is the term that i have been hearing a lot lately, as many of my cousins in the family and friends have crossed their teenage,done with their graduation and right now working....so whats next to do in life?

here you go now its the time to find a perfect life partner get married and settle down ahead in life. In any middle class family they have this tendency or you can say follow the trend as soon as daughter or son starts working with in year a two make sure to find a partner for them respectively as soon as possible, some times i feel even marriages have become a rat race, in that case specially when its a daughter.

 at times i casually chat with my female cousins or friends i have came across something that sounds very funny and imaginative called "i need a perfect partner" or "somebody like me".... i mean that is something so unrealistic,oh i maybe wrong or i may sound judgmental.

but wait a sec and think, on the one side we girls live in our  own created wonderland of perfect partner, on the other hand parents are no less these days about finding the perfect partner for their children, i agree they are parents and they expect the best for their child and their future but even they keep rejecting boys on whatsoever different criteria s they have in their head, be it income, looks,family and some are just rejected on baseless grounds. ..my question here is why we as a girl and as parents keep scrutinizing these boys their career their nature family etc..? i need to tell them is your girl that perfect ? 

at the same time these days i feel we girls don't know exactly what are we looking in a partner....they just want an extremely rich boy earning really well, high status, and good looks but if  we girls ardently look at our self do we really deserve such  boy .....? i feel we have so much moved to a materialistic world that somewhere the basic qualities we forget i.e love we don't need a perfect partner we need a love which is true, he as a person should be the one that makes you feel good about yourself who will be your best friend, respect your family, understand and most importantly care and love you for what you are and treat you  as his princess forever.
 yet love is the last necessity in the so called 'perfect partner wish list' and this brings me to a surprise always!

new year or some new fear???

a new year...new hopes ...new opportunities an altogether new beginning ...

As the whole world welcome New Year with their open arms and heart...I guess I was the one who slept before 12 in the night, as I could hear people in my neighbourhood celebrated with their friends and family.

almost all the people I met all the day had some or the other plan for the new years eve...but i guess I was the one who was least bothered about the new year , the  thing is i don't find anything interesting about the new year its just another day after 31st December.

when i was off to bed i had so many random thoughts that moved in my head, like a motion picture i had all the clippings of past year moving in front of my eyes,the past year was initially somehow good but after July things changed for me significantly ,everything went upside down be it my health, career, money or love life. i was struggling through lot of things then, dint know which way to go and what to do i felt as if i was good for nothing. when my health started to deteriorate even more thanks to the amount of stress i was taking , ultimately i decided to just gush with the things i will not utilize my brains and will just act according to the situation demands. I thought god is hinting me to rest so why not just do that, perhaps this holds something good for me. 

regardless of all,  i come to pass a job which saves my life actually, reason it helps to me just overcome of things i went through, and so also help me to pull up my fading confidence, and then new year arrives.. here i am still struggling with my job, trying to learn things, understand the people and adjust with the new environment. At the same moment i am somewhere at war within myself just to prove something to the world and society i don't know for what and most decisively to myself. i am just not happy the way things are shaping up for me.

 That’s the reason why i feel that New Year will have nothing new for me.

I don't even hope that things will be good, it’s an inner feeling that there is lots more worse to happen and thinking this horrifies me to a great extent, actually the feeling is i have lost the patience or i cannot let life test me more but on a positive note deep inside, my heart says bring it ON!!

  i am ready to face all the challenges, without any ups and downs life seems very boring right?

 more to the point, my mom is my strength and support she always makes me understand one thing ,that after every darkness there is light which is a new morning a brand new day of new hopes and new opportunities that will arise, thinking this i just closed my eyes offered my daily prayer to the almighty and said thank you for everything. gradually just said god, I firmly believe in you and it’s my trust that whatever you will do this year will definitely in some or the way will be good for me and will be an experience for the coming years of my life...

the loud music, people screaming with the loud voice on their building terraces HAPPY NEW YEAR  which  happened to be the last sounds i heard before i slept and walked into my wonderland.

small,little but true happiness in life.....

This Is one question which may have crossed each of our minds at some point of time in life.

If you just sit and think what are the things that give you happiness you will have bag full of choices and answer for this, but the real question though we aspire to achieve so much in life and  some may even achieve it but do you realize does this all genuinely makes your life happy?..Just sit back think for a minute and somewhere deep down within your heart you will get your answer…

The time since we have been kids and going to school we always dream to achieve certain goals at every stage in life and finally see ourselves at a place where we are highly educated or earning good amount of money for the rest of our lives, some may succeed some may not… some may end up doing altogether a different thing that they dreamt since their childhood.. all the years down we give our hundred percent ,all the hard work, all our time and energy  for whatever it takes to become a successful person after all, but how many of us are truly happy about the way their life is moving at present ….. 

I am no one to generalize things  but in this small life of mine whatever I have experienced or noticed we human beings in this world of competition just want to rise high, push ourselves to the fullest, and do whatever it takes to be a winner at the end, and I guess that’s happiness for some., There is nothing wrong about it though , and for some they fail, get weaken , it is sometimes the situation or sometimes it’s the destiny that change our plans and drop us to a place where god wants us to be and so, We just accept this and keep struggling day and night, work, and earn money we try and  keep ourselves busy 24/ 7 just to get the best in life and fulfill our needs with each passing day, but at some point of time when you are alone, sitting on a couch or lying on your bed having a peaceful time relaxing after a busy day at work have you  ever asked yourself am I really happy doing the things that I keep doing all through the day …  for me it’s a no. our true happiness is somewhere lost around our big dreams and goals… achieving them do give us happiness and satisfaction but these kind of happiness are temporary or short lived.  True happiness lies in little things in life...be it singing aloud, or playing the strings of your guitar, dancing like crazy irrespective of what your neighbors will think, as far as nobody is giving you marks for it..lolz doing all those little things which makes you happy.

Just helping your mom in the kitchen where you get time to talk with her, share laughs and the same time learn and some where this gives us both a beyond measure happiness.. .playing with small kids in the neighborhood and the feeling to be one of them makes you cherish the best times of your childhood is happiness ,spending time with our elders or grandparents listening to their stories making them smile along with you is somehow a true happiness  that is felt within the heart. Or it can also be just relaxing at the beach or observing the beauty of nature makes you recall all the good times in life is what happiness all about so also you can try making tea for the whole family so that at least for a little while they come together, sit ,enjoy  and  mutually yell at you for making an awful tea… despite the fact they will appreciate your efforts and drink it to make you happy…thus by all this I am just trying to explain that though we all are busy doing something or the other, however take out time to do little things in life which at least not others but makes your family, loved ones happy and ultimately makes you happy from all your heart. And I guess this sort of happiness your work won’t give you…just try it out.